Welcome November and change

November was welcomed with warm open arms. I am happy to say my head is above water with work and I am finally taking it "easy" . For me that still means some running around here and there, but it's great to say "I had a relaxing day" for the first time in a long time!

Poor Cain though is still very busy and he doesn't have a end in sight until Christmas break from school. Even then he works long days and is always doing something with the Army. There is really no holding him back when it comes to achieving his goals.

While we are talking about Cain and Army things I'd like to yet again give praise to my man for getting SGT in October. I was so very proud of his leadership and willingness to be a good Soldier and to not just "Show up" but to do work. Cain was selected as the #1 Medic in Indiana who went to boards this past July.

When I got the phone call about him getting SGT back in October he sounded a little down, and not so thrilled as I was. I asked "What's the matter? That's so awesome Cain, I'm so proud... Aren't you happy too?" He was, but there was a little "Set back" to getting SGT. There were no open slots for him at the 1st 293rd as a SGT.

So Cain has been moved to the Marion Unit and has his first drill weekend there in December.

For the first time ever I was really upset with the Army, this was new to me. As a wife I was upset because I had made friends with a lot of spouses and didn't want to him to leave the unit!

 I also was upset that he would now be 1 hour away instead of 5 minutes! We have been so blessed with the 1st 293rd I felt like this was the PERFECT place for him until he could go active Army after school.

My number 1 disappointment from this all is that I trusted the Soldier's Cain had gotten to know and become good friends with. I have met them personally and like them all! They have been so good to Cain and I hated to see him have to leave.

I did a little foot stomp when the news was final and said "It's just not fair!" No really I did. Haha

Hahaha so unlike me but I was upset. Now, since then I have started to come to grips with things and have started to look at the "Bright side"

Starting with: The friends I have made from Cain being in the 1st 293rd are STILL my friends no matter where Cain drills or when Cain goes active. I can still be friends with them!  And this will give me a chance to maybe meet new friends from his new unit.

And although he will drill 1 hour away from home he is now just 5-15 minutes away from his family who lives near Marion. This gives him and I more chances to see them and that's a great plus.

Cain took the news a little better then I did because I think he prepared himself for these things. The moving around part, he is ready for all that. I have come to find out...I am not! But this was my first test and I might have failed at first but I am back with my big girl pants and I'm sucking it up.

I have to be on my toes when it comes to Cain's dreams, goals, wants and desirers. At any time he will change things up and dream for something bigger, something better for his career  and I'm over here like "Fasten your seat belt everyone, gonna be a bumpy ride" Haha

I'm here to cheer for and encourage him through it all, that's the easy part! The hard part is knowing that we won't be around "Home" (where our family is) forever. Every step Cain makes puts him closer to moving and seeing the world and bettering his personal and Army career. It's so great, so honoring to be a part of Cain's dreams. But I am finding myself needing to put those "Big girl pants" on more and more. Not the kind of pants you put on after downing a bowl of cookie dough, the kind where you realize you can't be scared or afraid of the what if's or the unknown and wonder if you can do it. Those fears.

Being a good wife is easy. Being a supportive & brave wife ... that's hard. Trusting in your husband to lead you, provide for you ....... and too follow him or have to wait for him... that's where the true love and commitment start showing.

I do pray to be the wife God desirers me to me for Cain. I know I stomped my foot over something silly and I know I am afraid of moving away one day, but I trust my husband with everything in me. He will not lead me astray because I know who is leading him.

God will lead us in the path that we could go. He has already shown Himself in so many ways I do feel foolish to have pouted over one little move. Now I see what I should have before! God is in control and is moving us to where HE wants us. Not where Lanette wants, not where Cain wants but where He wants. ... Oh to have faith in God is a powerful thing.