I end this post....

I start this post a little tired, over worked, under the weather and stressed from life in it's self. But by the time this post is over with I promise I will have a better spirit about me... I just needed this post to let some things out so I can move on and be a little less stressed!

Since our last post we have been doing the same little things we always do, work, school, work, and work a little bit more. 

God has a way of slowing things down though, and bringing family together.

 Last Monday the 7th we lost Cain's Papa, Ken Eskew. We knew that he wouldn't be on this earth much longer due to health problems... but you never really can imagine what that will be like when someone you love, is gone. 

I am so thankful that I got to meet Papa in 2012 while Cain and I were just dating. He was so kind and I knew right away why Cain had always looked up to him. After spending a couple of days in TN with him we had to say goodbye and when we did he said to me  "Well, you're smart, kind and well built"

 A little thrown back at first I laughed, then realized how happy I was that he seemed to like me. 

We visited every summer after that one, together and it really was the best time for us. Our last visit in May this year there was a little bit of a sadness leaving, not knowing how much more time we had with him on this earth. And that fear did come true last Monday when Cain got the call. 

Trying to be strong for Cain was harder then I thought it would be. Seeing him upset and hurt is something I'd rather not see at all! I'm used to the always smiling Cain. Once we were with family though things started to get easier. We were able to share stories and catch up and that helps with the sadness. 

I'm so thankful for the time spent in TN for Papa's Funeral. It was stressful, very tense with a lot of hurting people and history of things that go back before I was every in the family! Being the in law is a hard task! You don' know half the people and you're just there to be a support but sometimes you feel al little lost on what to do other then be there for a ear to listen :)

Cain really shines in TN. I think some of his happiest memories are with his family there. The slow pace hunting life is where Cain lights up, which is why I've always loved it there. Enjoy these next few (Lots!) of photos that I took while we were with family last week ...

Coming home after a short notice trip like that though is hard because life is waiting for you when you get back home and then you feel like you can't catch a break! 

My immune system was low from not eating what I've used too and lack of lots of sleep! I caught a little bug because of that and has since been trying to rebuild my immune system back up and where I left it! 

Yesterday was a hard day for work, my body was still trying to get better and my mind had to be in full gear mode. Once I was home though there was a clean house, oils defusing (Love me some Young Living Oils) and Cain doing dishes. My heart did a little *Sigh ... Cain stopped and said, I'm getting a bath started of you, go relax.  

It's amazing to me how the role of care giver, shoulder to cry on or "The rock"  in a marriage reverse back and forth sometimes daily. We both need each other in different ways everyday. Last week I tried to be "The rock" (I probably failed horribly) and this week it's back to Cain comforting me after a long day. 

I end this post extremely thankful, smiling at Nova cuddling next to me, ready to take on what life has ..  but remember ... That doesn't have to be today. Everyday I want to work a little harder, go a little further ... but today, I'm staying right where I'm at ... and not going to feel bad for it :) 

Neighborhood squirrels and ways to my heart...

Life has been pretty hectic around here the past couple of weeks.  With school now started and my work schedule picking up (Not counting the two births in one week!) it feels like we have less and less time alone together! We both wish there was a weekend that from Friday-Sunday we had nothing to do and no where to go! (Besides church, of course!)

I don't see that happening ANY time in the future but we do try and spend our evenings and (my favorite, but very rare times in the) mornings together.

Our porch has been our go to place for meals and our "Tell me about your day" talks. We watch Nova go crazy watching the neighborhood squirrels run up and down the sidewalk and trees just giggling at how perfect we think our dog is haha We then always say how thankful we are for our little family :)

Before we know it though, it's time to go back to work. We both put in long hours but I'm thankful we never forget to have fun together or make time for each other.

 Sometimes it's the little things. Like the hug Cain gives me before leaving for work in the mornings (Its a long sweet, sweet hug) , a funny video we save so we can share it with the other once we are both home, or when Cain has to make a trip to Lowe's and brings me back a new plant (The way to my heart) or a break in my day to visit Cain at work to give him a little gift to say "I'm thankful for you!"

These things are just reminders of how thankful we are for each other and a way to show our love.

We know life will just get more and more busy, but we are trying to make good habits for the busy days. We love ours jobs, which is one of the reasons we work so much! But I always have to remind myself of a quote my best friend gave to me so many years back  .... "Never get so busy making a living you forget to make a life"

Those words have stayed with me since that day. Maybe because I have the quote on a board next to my desk ... haha  and because it's so true in my life, I couldn't forget.

 I love everything I do and I like to do it often! But I never want to miss out on other things around me. So with that I'm signing off .... this time not to work but to take a nice long bike ride with Nova Blu :) Because new plants, long bike rides, walks to the park, mornings on the porch, spending time with Graci, sitting and sharing stories with my mom and cuddling in bed next to Cain and Nova are just a few ways to my heart ....